One Night I Dreamed A Dream...
In the middle of my senior year I was having trouble with my grades. I knew that if I didn't get on the ball i wouldn't graduate but I just didn't feel motivated. Well one night I had a dream. I dreamt I walked out onto a balcony overlooking a playground where there were children playing across the great expansive playground. Suddenly, at my side, appeared my Apologetics teacher. He pointed his hand toward one part of the sky and said, "Robert, this is what will happen if you continue to mess around with your friends." Suddenly it was like I was being pulled nto the sky and I went forward only to be stopped by an invisible wall. Then I went forward again, and again. Only to be stopped at the next wall. My teacher then pointed to another part of the sky the opposite way. "This is what will happen if you buckle downa nd do your work while still having your friends." I went forward again and was met with wall after wall overcoming them before coming to a wall that I didn't pass over. Then i found myself, yet again on the balcony overlooking the playground. My teacher walked away and I followed him but not before grabbing a card off of a stack on a table. On this cad was the Biola flower, the insignia of the school I attend.
I tell this story because of the recent and current events in my life. I think I may have encountered the wall I couldn't pass. My father is in the hospital, he had a heart attack. I don't know what to do. For osme reason I feel so lost and scared, something I've never felt before. Usually i trust in God and just let him handle things but...I'm scared I'm goign to lose my Dad. I really am. I suppose the thought of his morality on this plaane never crossed my mind. I don't want to lose him. I feel horrible inside. The weight of my emotions and yet I feel as if I can't talk to anyone. I hate it.
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